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Rejection Midsummer 2018
August 10, 2018, 11:03 pm
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FEWW – The Leah Blackburn

I don’t know what to tell you about this award. I apply every year – because I am a woman and a playwright. But so does every other woman in the country. So…nope!

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Woman Arts

I submitted a song to the Woman Arts song contest. They were looking for a song to celebrate women and the current moment and my song was really more angry than celebrating so I’m not surprised I did not win.

But this is my first music based rejection in a while!

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Millay Rejection – always – again. Rejected again.

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In theory, the Women’s Project should be just the right situation for me. In practice, I’ve rarely been a fan of the work I’ve seen them do. I thought maybe the tide was turning when I saw one of my favorite artists there – someone they supported in a way she’d never been supported before. They produced a whole new work of hers there. I saw it twice.

So I thought – maybe it’s a whole new aesthetic now – maybe it’s worth applying for their thing – maybe, if they got Monica Bill Barnes, they’ll get me, too.

But they didn’t. Or don’t. Or I don’t know.

Anyway – it may, in fact, be business as usual over there. I’m pretty sure they also rejected another kick-ass feminist playwright I know – so it could be that they’re still pretty status quo-y over there.

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In other rejection news, I applied for this kind of intense residency in Tulsa. I didn’t particularly LONG to move to Tulsa for an extended period – but I do long for extended support and recognition so I would have been delighted to get it.

But apparently 700 other people also would have been delighted to get it because 700 people applied. We could all start a new town with that amount of people.

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Accidental Preemptory Rejection

Before I submitted my Comedy of Errors play to American Shakespeare Company for the Shakespeare’s New Contemporaries project, I went to their website, saw a whole different set of plays for the project and I promptly flipped out. I thought I’d missed the deadline for the Comedy of Errors play and I was distraught. So I started a Midsummer Night’s Dream play – because – a – I don’t know. I’m a sucker for punishment?

Anyway – I realized soon enough that I hadn’t missed the deadline for Comedy of Errors plays. I’d just stumbled upon the next round. So once I’d finished the Errors play (and various other projects) I returned to the Midsummer one. I was pushing my luck – but I figured I could do one last push before the deadline on August 5th. That was before I got on the website on August 1st and discovered that the deadline was actually August 1st. And the amount of work the play still needed was way way more than I could do in a couple of hours. And so I missed that deadline and wrote (most of) that Midsummer sequel in vain. I’ll still finish it – because you never know. But it is a bummer. I’m not sure how I got that deadline so wrong. But I did. Alas.

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Some Very Competitive Rejections

“It’s very competitive,” they said.

The rejection notice, for a residency at U Cross, informed me that their applications are very competitive. I find this a funny thing to say. Partly because I can’t imagine it would take the sting out of rejection for anyone but also because I sort of feel like, if you have to say that, it’s not actually that prestigious a situation. This is a thing I haven’t applied to before so it’s a relatively unknown organization for me. I’m sure I learned lots of things about it when I applied but I have already forgotten them.

What’s also funny to me is that I received an actual acceptance from an actually prestigious organization recently and there’s none of this sort of self-inflating language in their materials. This is generally true that those with actual power and prestige (almost) never feel compelled to self-advertise. This is why having Donny Twimp in office is so baffling.

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In other rejection news, at a friend’s suggestion, I have begun to explore the possibilities of doing voice overs for games. It is super fun to investigate. I submitted for the first time a few weeks ago. I recorded a couple of different characters. It’s a relatively steep learning curve but a fun learning curve! They did not call and I was not surprised. It would be crazy to get an acceptance on the first voyage out.

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There’s a program to work at senior centers in the city. It need to be called Sparc and now is called Su Casa. A couple of years ago I did it in Manhattan and we put on a Romeo and Juliet at Lenox Hill Senior Center. I applied to Su Casa in Queens this year to work on devising a piece around “The Angel in the House” with seniors – particularly senior women – but my proposal was rejected. I’m not particularly surprised – generally the visual and literary arts do better in this context – but I do think it’s rather a shame as I have a bucket of experience on this front.

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And finally, the Drama League says no again. I never remember what I applied with for them but whatever it was – it ain’t happenin’.

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Rejection and The Beats

For a while there, in my youth, I was obsessed with the Beat Poets. My preference was for Ferlinghetti but I finally read Kerouac before I went to college. I taped a paragraph from On the Road to my dorm room wall. (This whole Beat thing MAY have been inspired by an incredible children’s book called Suzuki Beane which features a hip child beat poet. Or maybe not.)

My Dad knew I was into the Beats so he gave me a copy of Minor Characters by Joyce Johnson, one-time girlfriend of Kerouac. This book changed everything. I realized who was missing from the whole Beat conversation and who had been included and who had not. I stopped finding the Beats so sexy and found them more sexist. And so, began a lifetime of making work that focused on women’s stories. To go from being Minor Characters to Major. Thank you, Joyce Johnson.

But since there isn’t a Joyce Johnson Minor Characters residency, I had to apply to her ex-boyfriend’s house residency instead. The Kerouac House declined to accept me again.

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Rejections of May, like sweet flowers, Bloom
May 31, 2017, 12:36 am
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The nice thing about NOT applying to places like the Millay Colony (which is reported to be a place of artistic magic and wonder) is that you can imagine how great it might be if you ever got it together to apply. That’s how it used to be for me.

However, I have now applied so many times, I could buy a couple of weeks worth of groceries with my application fees.

Luckily, my patrons at Patreon make that outlay of cash worth the price of rejection as I now get paid more to get rejected than I pay to apply. Is it discouraging to be so often rejected? Absolutely. Every time.

But on the bright side, if I’d gotten accepted, I’d not be writing this post now. I’d be suiting up to go write at a residency, where I can promise you, I would not be blogging until I returned because I’d be head first into my creative writing. It’s May. It’s Millay Rejection Month.

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Rejection for a Residency and Academic Jobz
September 6, 2016, 10:07 pm
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Three rejections in one… for details about why I’m detailing my rejections, see my note at the end of the post.*

Rejection 1

There must be more people applying for the Albee residency as their rejection letters are getting less and less personal. Or maybe they’re hating my work more and more. This is my third rejection there and the first one was one of the nicest rejection letters I’d seen. The second was still nice – but not QUITE so nice. This one was pretty perfunctory.

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Rejection 2

(First of two academic jobz. I’m calling them jobz because it makes me take them less seriously. At first it was a typo but now I love it. )

I applied for a job in Colorado. I really didn’t want to move to Colorado but I was so bizarrely and uniquely qualified for it – and it was very specific and I figured they maybe needed me. And I figured I needed some practice interviewing for an academic professorship. But they probably just had someone else in mind who was even more bizarrely and uniquely qualified for it than me. Academic job descriptions are often written to fit the person they want to hire and I’m guessing that this is one of those. I mean, one of my recommendations came from someone friendly with the people doing the hiring. I feel like that alone should have gotten me an interview. But I got a rejection notice.

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Rejection 3

Oh Academic Jobs! You are such a pain in the ass to apply for. You take so much time and effort. You make my colleagues, friends and mentors write new letters in support of me. You sometimes even make me re-type my CV into your format. I’m also not sure I want you. I mean – it seems like it would help my artistic life to have a steady academic gig – but your environments tend to be toxic and the ones that are available are not convenient to my life.

 But I keep applying. The latest rejection was for the Devising position at SUNY Purchase. A job I could do….in a place that would be inconvenient.

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Rejection Declaration

I’m pretty sure I’m done applying for academic jobs. So unless I get some rejections for positions I don’t remember applying for, these should be the last academic rejection posts.

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Hedgebrook Rejection
April 22, 2016, 11:11 pm
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Twice Rejected now. Hedgebrook is a residency for women in the Northwest. It’s funny because I was never really attracted to women only spaces before. I’ve been a feminist for forever but never really felt drawn to single sex experiences. I didn’t consider a women’s college for even a second. (An option I now think might have been a really good one.) I didn’t go to women’s festivals or go to women’s groups.

But I now recognize that all of these sorts of institutions actually do help advance women’s lives. I came to understand that with the difficulties at hand in making my artist’s life – that there might be a great deal of benefit in leaning into the “minority” status of my womanhood. I’m interested in Hedgebrook, not because there are only women there – but because it exists to help support women in overcoming the cultural obstacles before them. I need all the help I can get in that department. So. I keep applying. And if they keep giving these residencies to people like Eve Ensler, Sarah Waters and Gloria Steinem, I guess it’s not too likely I’ll get it anytime soon. But I support the idea of it. So… it’s already worth a shot. And I would NOT be upset about getting to hang out at a writing retreat with Gloria Steinem.

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Residency Rejection
April 30, 2015, 10:12 pm
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I don’t mind the rejections so much when the application is simple, free and doesn’t ask a lot of me. If I can apply in half an hour, it’s a relatively painless attempt and so when I don’t get it, as just happened with the application to a writing residency, it barely bothers me. I applied to this same residency last year and it was just no skin off my nose to reapply and the sting of rejection is next to nothing. There are many other residencies I’d rather go to but I’ll keep applying to this one, too – because it’s so easy.

Basically there’s a direct connection between how much effort it takes to apply for a thing and how disappointed I am not to get it. Grants are killers that way because they are EPIC amounts of work and rarely come through.

If there were an application where I just clicked a box saying I was applying – that rejection letter would be the least painful imaginable, even if it were something I desperately wanted.

I think. I can’t know, though – because I have NEVER seen an application like that.

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