Songs for the Struggling Artist


Lark, Drama League and Loose Ends Rejections
March 19, 2017, 10:50 pm
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In a climate wherein it feels like my entire worldview has been rejected, writing rejection posts hasn’t felt like quite the priority it once was. However, one must go on.

‘You must go on. I can’t go on. I’ll go on.” 

Thanks Samuel Beckett. Here’s some rejections:

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Despite my generally agreeable personality, I may be a little bit of an iconoclast. I mean it’s not NEWS necessarily but I hadn’t quite worked out the depths until recently. As an artist, I’m already on the edges – at the periphery of the culture as a whole – but I’m also at the periphery of the arts culture. There is a way to belong within the medium – to be at the center of an arts community. I do not fit in there either. I’m a playwright but I’ve never received a single acceptance or acknowledgement for my writing. Am I a lousy writer? I don’t think so. I just don’t write the kind of plays that get selected for writing groups and writing retreats and writing development programs.

Which – when I think about it – is fine – because I’d much rather develop my work myself. I’m not really interested in fitting in to the establishment. So it’s logical that it does not accept me. Anyway – this is the most recent Lark rejection. There have been a lot of them. As there are for many playwrights I know.

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And because I feel bad posting a single rejection, especially one I didn’t have to pay to apply for, this post has been waiting for subsequent rejections before I felt I could post it. Somehow, I hadn’t received a lot of rejections between this Lark one in November and now. But – rejection season is now upon us. And then I received one from The Drama League. Now, when I got this one, I had NO MEMORY of applying or even what it was. But in search of some text to use for a recent application, I discovered the Drama League application and discovered that it was for funds and assistance in developing a piece. Which I could have absolutely used. But alas.

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Additionally, in looking at my rejection spread sheet, I’ve discovered quite a few things I’ve applied for that I never received rejections for but for which I was clearly rejected, as months, and sometimes years, have passed. So – in the interest of being a rejection completist – here are all the things I’ve applied for since I started keeping track that I just got no response from.

LMCC Workspace, Left Tilt Fund, Center for Fiction, Nancy Quinn Fund (2016,) Purple Rose Theatre Company and the Kevin Spacey Foundation.

 

*Wondering why I’m telling you about all these rejections? Read my initial post about this here and my patron’s idea about that here.

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There are More Rejected than Accepted
March 5, 2016, 11:46 pm
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I belong to several playwright groups. A post went through on one of them that said something like, “Just got my rejection for the Lark!” And a dozen people replied saying either they had or had not yet received theirs yet. I was one of those who had not yet received that particular rejection email and I found it strangely comforting to get the news of its imminent arrival this way. It was a little like a nurse saying, “”You’re going to feel a tiny pinch in a moment,” while he’s preparing your arm for the needle. It’s like a tiny bit of anesthetic for the pain.

 

It also helps to feel how being rejected in this sort of context is so much more common than being accepted. So many people become a part of the rejected club and the only people who are excluded, the only people who can’t join are the people who actually got accepted.

 

It’s a nice way to turn that dynamic around. It pays to remember this in terms of numbers. Every time I get rejected, I am accompanied by so many people having exactly the same experience.

 

For some odd reason, rejections seem to come with a tiny brown paper package of shame – a little visit from the failure fairy. It’s an experience we’re supposed to have in private. But having it publicly helps with that shame piece. Having it collectively helps, too.

 

There is power in numbers.
In a fight, the rejected would definitely be able to take the accepted in almost every scenario. Then we’d see who the winners are! Ha!

Power to the rejected people!

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*Wondering why I’m telling you about all these rejections? Read my initial post about this here and my patron’s idea about that here.

You can help me weather the storms of rejection by becoming my patron on Patreon.

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Click HERE  to Check out my Patreon Page




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